It's
incredibly frustrating to be so head-over-heels, obsessively in love with a new fandom - thinking about it nearly every waking moment - and have absolutely NO close online or real life friends who are as into it as me. Almost none who even
watch it.
So all of the people I see or talk to the most online and off? I just annoy the hell out of them 24 hours a day with my constant state of squee. I can feel it putting stress on friendships. And then the few people online that I'm just getting to really know who
are into the show, are never really around LJ at the same time as me.
There are a few other Seeker fans who are
almost as obsessed as me and are around on LJ when I am, but they barely even know me. And I'm like the only guy in any of the threads, so it's like, who's the random crazy dude? And everyone's in on all of these inside jokes with each other, and... I just feel so incredibly out of place and ignorant.
*whines* Why can't the whole world be made of Seeker?!?!?Normally in this situation I'd just pour all of that into vidding the show. But I have to wait because the stuff coming up in the next few weeks is crucial to all of my vid ideas. It's like I'm stuck in some kind of weird fandom purgatory.
On a related note: I totally understand if you defriend me because you're sick of all the talk about this show. You won't be the first. Yes, I am aware of how insane I seem.